Chatting with a good friend recently I said I was in a quandary and expressed my desire to do more. “Do more of what” I was asked…my reply was “I’m not really sure”. I just know that deep down I am on fire for the Lord and need a way to let it out. Recently the tragic events that took place in a family I am close to have stirred things up in me. You see they have experienced the greatest loss anyone could, the death of their beloved daughter. I cannot imagine anything more painful than losing a child, yet they have shown all of us what unwavering FAITH in God truly looks like in a way that is indescribable.
Along this journey that we all took with them I had the unexpected boldness and opportunity to share my faith with a few people. People who do not attend church, people who may or may not believe in God or just people of very little faith. You see God used the circumstances of this family to give all of us a way to make a difference. When you have the least likely person you know ask you to tell them about miracles or another to say “I prayed for your friend’s daughter today”; you know that God is working through me to touch these previously untouched lives. What an amazing feeling, to give God the glory and share with others about HIS love for us.
My friend suggested that I start by praying to God for direction, for that truly has to come from Him. Without Godly direction my efforts will be in vain and pointless. Already in this process I have begun to have small ideas pop into my head and some things that were unclear to me are becoming obvious. Doubts are beginning to fade and the quandary is becoming less complex. God doesn’t want me in a quandary, HE wants me to listen for HIS guidance and when HE speaks for me to be obedient. Even baby steps of obedience are steps in the right direction. HE never gives us more then we can handle and HE does not waste any time when it’s time to move.
Philippians 1:6 says “Be confident that HE who began a great work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus”
HE has a plan and a purpose for each of us. We are not here by chance or accident. We are not just going through the motions of what seems like our mundane lives. HE already knows what each day will hold for us from beginning to the end. Nothing is a surprise to HIM, not one day of our lives. So yes I am restless…I believe HE has made me restless because HE wants me to do more for HIM and the time is NOW.
I have turned to Jeremiah 29:11-13 to calm my restlessness as I begin my new journey. “For I know the plans I have for you” declares the Lord. “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”. When you call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.